The question

I was searching evidences,
whether it exists in my senses,
far from the clarity,
my love for you and its expenses.

Facing giggles of yours,
i think about sand and shores.
The lurve which excites to live,
spontaneous, the passion in course.

Everytime sharing coffee or a view,
i estimate dwell of life, the due.
With your agog for my estimates,
i flex deeply in you, for clue.

i feel passion, a force unbearable,
that take things away from simple.
The unknown communication between us.
Why for you, its all invisible?

SHADOW OF THE DARK

An unusual night,

my steps towards you.

I was wondering,

healing dreams, BLUE.

You were not there,

but I was not alone.

I stuck with that thing,

The Feeling of YOU has grown.

I clarified myself,

and left with a FISHY dought.

I lost within myself thing,

The WAR has been fought.

DARKNESS was in th room,

and lights were far away.

ILLUSIONS of you were there,

but they did not have much to say.

I opened the window,

WINDS were singing solo.

i touched thm,

they gave REASONS to follow.

i RECLAIMED myself.

left this for some other day.

the RAYS are coming now,

let the MIND come into play.

THE CLARIFICATION

My mind was searching for a vision,
things to be tolerated in the love season.
incepted in the core of mine,
indigenous feelings with erosion.

Vison was never crystal clear,
i tried hard to find the shear.
i tried hard to escape the fear.
computing the consequences,
i prayed god, The dear.

My prayer was in the list,
i waited, seated, irritated.
there were certain conditions,
in which i never fitted.

THEN,

I woke up in fresh air,
contemplated myself,
whether i played fair?
i fought for what no one did care.
still missing the total share.

the enthuasism inside me,
discussed over my plea.
heart of mine still looking for,
what it wants to see.
still awake, still searching.
fighting, still mnd streching.
still disapprobation.
waiting for the CLARIFICATION.

Humsab.......Humlog

आँखों के पर्दों पे,
सपने  संजोये.
पहचान से अलग,
किसी धुन में खोये.
तनहा नही हैं.
साथ है अपनी जिंदगी.
बेतलब आवारगी.
बोलने के लिए,
जब लब्ज़ कम पड़े.
आंखे ही काम आई.
नयने......जल से भरे  पड़े.
हलचल हरकत,
बेमतलब बेवक्त.
संजीदा शुरुआत,
न जाने कैसा अंत.
मंजिल  की ओर,
हर शक्श, हर संत.
देखा जब,
सच से भागती हर नज़र,
नज़रो पे एक जाली.
जाली से सब देखे शहर.
नज़रे फिर हँस पड़ी,
तन्हाई की आदत पड़ी,
ऐसे-वैसे, जैसे-तैसे.
भावनाए, सड़ी-गली.
सच को लांघती सीमायें,
ए लड़की,
तुझे हम क्यों पढाये?
नया  है तू,
क्यों न हम बरगलाये?
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.
.
और ................ और क्या?
हम सब .........हम लोग.
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THEN AND NOW

Wistfully,
I swimmed into past.
Gloomy,
How long it will last?

I had choosen a way.
I had nothing to say.
Fighting to me ,by myself.
Deteriorating per day.

Memories,
I was fed up with that.
wanted to decrease,
Trojan, a layer fat.

But Now

I am living in present.
Without any past scent.
Walls of my heart,
With karma, Have a paint.

Relaxed,
I dont think too much.
Attitude changed,
My heart, in my clutch.

I dont know,
Whether I have succeed.
But i am bit confident,
With my every deed.

My Mother

It was almost midnight.
suddenly,
I got vision, a sight.

I saw myself crumbled,
by a crosswind.
Breathing high, feared.

Place was strange.
Dark and unknown.
Wanted to swallow, a revenge.

Running recklessly,
I saw her.
& everything diminished,
along with my fear.

I tight hugged her.
Still scare.

She smiled--
"Without any clue,
  I will be with you."

ME

When i see,
deep inside me.
I see a boy,bounded.
locked in the room,
With no mercy.

Suffocation was high,
He wanted to cry,
Once he overexpressed,
Gradually became shy.

Somehow,
He unlocked the room.
Came into existence
& tried to destroy the gloom.

He was alone,
Roads were broken,hazard.
Destiny was waiting.
He was in dilemna,
He himself was creating.

But,
It was not what he wanted.
He left,
what he was granted.

He went again,
to that room.
Locked the door,
with reminders of
rain and the shore.